:edit: Fuck it - Ame was right. Going to listen to her. Just going to take a break for a while. No one is blocked or removed from anything of mine. Real quick, though. I feel that I should establish this before moving on with anything. PSY was the one who started the OH SO WE'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU HUH bullshit. 10:16:24 PM Psyguy: just feels like you were just waiting for something better 10:16:27 PM Rahleigh: socko? 10:16:28 PM Rahleigh: yes. 10:16:39 PM Psyguy: we were there - but now that you found something better we're not worth your time anymore 10:16:56 PM Rahleigh: not necessarily better 10:16:59 PM Rahleigh: something i fit into better 10:17:12 PM Psyguy: You fit into it fine when you weren't going after socko 10:17:26 PM Rahleigh: i was also arguing with you all the time - 10:17:28 PM Psyguy: now that you're going after socko you don't fit in with us - and you're put off by my friends 10:17:28 PM Psyguy: so 10:17:29 PM Rahleigh: starting shit with kirb 10:17:31 PM Psyguy: whatever
I NEVER said that. I never even insinuated that. In fact I'd assume that me saying I'M not good enough for YOU guys would be taken COMPLETELY differently. But no. I just said I didn't feel like I fit in with you all anymore - because I didn't. I never have anything to say and when I do it's because I'm afraid I'm going to come off as a bitch or something. I'm sick of it. I don't have that problem with anyone else. The 'something better' comment. In Skype, I said when first called that I was 'waiting for Socko, so...'. Sockobird is the name of his priest's character. Not 'something better.' I know I talk too fast and I know I'm hard to understand. I took responsibility for that, and I apologize again.
When it was said in AIM - Psy interrupted me before I could finish my train of thought. Socko isn't 'something better' - I fit in with him better presently due to how much I'm playing the game. But he's not 'something better' than all of you. I think I deserve a little more credit for you all to think that I would drop everyone and everything to focus on one guy.
I haven't been ignoring anyone. I've tried to get Psy's attention to invite me into conversations - and when I do get invited in, I feel out of place; it's been a couple days since I've heard anything from anyone, and I don't know what all is going on in most of the conversations being held. I feel left out. I know it's my own fault for not being in there to begin with, but there shouldn't be a 'fault'. It's my choice to play this game. If I had a better computer that could run Skype and WoW at the same time with no hiccups - I'd do it. But I don't. 99% of the time I'm already on WoW and in a group before Psy and I even start talking. It's a prior commitment. I'm not going to drop something I've already started and that I enjoy to sit in silence or be mocked constantly. That's not to say I would never be in Skype again or never have talked to any of you again - but I shouldn't have to mitigate or justify how I spend my time to anyone. It's none of anyone's concern how much I'm talking to one party vs. the other. The reasons for it, yes, I can see why you would all be curious. But I'm not going to be punished for how and who I spend my time with. There's no way in hell anyone should see me spending time on a game to get closer to a guy online as OH GOD SHE'S NOT TALKING TO US SHE MUST BE SHUNNING US WE'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH ANYMORE TIME TO BE ASSHOLES. Seriously. Psy, you're the one who always told me you needed to focus on one thing versus the other, otherwise both of them suffer. I don't get on Skype when I'm on WoW because I'd be halfassing a conversation. I don't get on WoW when I'm doing wha-chow because that's rude. I don't outright ignore you, either; we still talked in AIM. You had opportunities to include me - skype conferences, for instance - if you were really that dead-set on me getting into the conversation. But nah, I guess it's easier just to assume I hate all of you and would rather get dat ass and ignore the rest of you for eternity for one guy. That's all I have to say about it at the moment. |